Apparently empty nesting isn't enough for me...

If you had told me 10 years ago that empty nesting would have hit me like a ton of bricks, I would have thought you were crazy. I was in the midst of raising 2 kids, struggling with making all the ends meet...the extra-curricular activities, the mortgage, the car payment, all the things on my own. I was spending weekends in a loud cold gym and my sweet summer nights on a soccer field. I mean don't get me wrong, I loved every single second of it but it wasn't easy all the time and often you forget to savor...just to savor the small moments.

I always though that I'd lazily wake up on Saturday mornings, go make my coffee in my sparkling clean kitchen, and spend the days exploring and living...living for myself finally. It didn't take me long after the kids were gone to realize that when they were home I was living....for myself and for them. Being alone as amazing as it can be now, is not something I wanted all the time.

So tomorrow I have a home visit, and maybe I'll talk more about that when and if it comes to fruition....but I realize that kids are my everything and sometimes maybe it doesn't have to be my own kids...maybe I have enough to share for other people's kids. We'll see...